Friday, September 16, 2011

Back to normal

So I guess I should update since it's been forever!

I drove back to Florida on August 5th, stayed with family for a few days, then moved into our new apartment on the 11th. It's amazing here, I love it! Even though it's smaller than our house we had on base, it makes up for it with all the upgrades throughout. We won't be here for too much longer anyways so I think we can handle the tinyness. :)

Chris was due home August 28th, but their plane got delayed thanks to Hurricane Irene. Only a day thank the lord, or else I would have flipped. So the 29th was the day! I was soooo excited! I made him a sign for the front door (tried to find the picture but I guess I deleted it?), and spent the last week getting the apartment all neat & tidy. I think I got about 5 hours of sleep total the last night, and woke up around 7am cuz I was so anxious. His plane wasn't due to land 'til 2:30, so I had alot of waiting around that morning. I got ready and headed to the airport 45 minutes early just in case he landed early. A bunch of people showed up to welcome them home which was awesome! When he finally landed, I stood over where he'd be coming out and just waited & waited... When I saw him, my heart stopped. I don't even know the words to describe the feeling during a homecoming.. Amazing pretty much sums it up. I ran up to him and squeezed as hard as I could for like 5 minutes. Once he got his bags, we headed home :) The dogs were so excited to see him, Brady wouldn't stop giving him kisses, and Duncan did his happy pee, right on Chris's stomach lol.



Fast forward almost 3 weeks (which flew by!) We've done tons of shopping, and buying things for our new apartment, so not much to really say about that. He is back to work today. But it's only for this weekend, and Wednesday-Thursday.. Then he goes back on leave and we go on our cruise!

I'm off to start making dinner so it'll be done in time for him to be home! :)

Sunday, July 10, 2011

Update on my boring life

First, let me just tell you how happy I am that I'm done with the 30 day picture challenge! I was getting very tired of doing it, but I didn't want to quit halfway through, and there was only one picture I skipped because I didn't have anything to put there lol.

So,  things have been going great in Oklahoma. I only have about a month left then I'm heading back to Florida. 33 days to be exact. I found Chris and I a cute apartment. I haven't seen it in person, but the pics of it are cute and I'm so excited! It's been stressful having to do everything on my own without Chris's help, but it'll pay off in the end since we won't be living in base housing.

Chris sews on Staff Sgt on August 1st. I couldn't be any more proud of him. He's been waiting for a year to put it on. We are finally almost coming to an end to his deployment. Once I get to Florida, he will have about 3-4 weeks and he'll be home!

We have our trip planned out for when he gets home. We'll be going on a 7-day cruise to Cozumel, Belize, Honduras, and the Cayman Islands. We leave October 2nd :) What an awesome birthday to spend it in Belize. We're gonna have so much fun! We already planned out what we're gonna do each day. Swim with dolphins and sting rays, tubing through some caves, and the thing I'm most excited about, underwater sea trek, check out the pic :) I can't wait for this trip. Chris and I have never taken a vacation alone just the two of us, so this will be a first, and will be his first time on a cruise. Ahh I'm so excited :D

Tell me that isn't the coolest thing you've seen!





I have still been grateful enough to talk to Chris every day since he's been gone. We send about 50 emails a day, and then I get a call on Skype once he gets off work. Other than planning the move back home, and planning the cruise, nothing exciting has really been going on, my life is still pretty boring.

 If home is where you are, then home is too far away.
 

Day Thirty

Post a picture of your favorite military spouse support group and tell how it has helped you.

I don't have a favorite support group, because I have so many. I have about 5 or 6 that are through Facebook. I don't ask for support as much as I lend support to others. It's great to talk to other people who are going through the same thing, it makes it alot easier :)

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Day Twenty Nine

Post a picture of the coolest place you ever got to go to because of your spouse being in the military.


I don't know if this counts or not, but when Chris deployed for the first time, I went up to visit my brother in Montana, and we went to Glacier National Park. It was probably the prettiest place I have ever been. Every inch of it looked like a post card. It was so pretty, and I definitely want to go back! Even though there is nothing else in Montana lol

Friday, July 8, 2011

Day Twenty Eight

Post a picture of the band that sings the song of your significant other’s ring tone while they are away.


His ringtone is 'Crazy Girl' by Eli Young Band.
Such a good song, go listen to it!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Day Twenty Seven

Post a picture of something that reminds you of your spouse and tell why it does.


Anything dealing with sports reminds me of Chris. He plays sports, watches, plays them on video games and talks about it. And when he's gone it's weird not hearing anything about them lol.

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Day Twenty Six

Post a homecoming picture and tell how you felt that day

Sadly I don't have any homecoming pictures.. I was by myself last homecoming, and didn't get anyone to snap any for us :( I am hoping to get some when he comes home in a few months.. and I will definitely be posting them :)

I can't even begin to tell you how excited I was for him to come home. It was a crazy day to begin with. My brother was visiting for his Exodus leave from Tech School, and we were dropping him off at the airport at 6am, the same day Chris was coming home. When we got back to the house, I loaded up the car and starting making my 3-hour drive back to Patrick AFB. I made it quite early due to speeding. I hurried up and unpacked the car, took a shower, and cleaned the house up a bit. It took me a little over an hour to do all this. I then jumped back in the car to head to the Orlando Airport. It usually takes about 45 minutes to an hour to get there.. I got there in 35, no joke. Lol I was speeding again :P Once I got there I met up with another wife. We waited for about 15 minutes before seeing them all coming towards us from the gate. It took a few minutes to find Chris, they all seemed to look alike lol. When I finally found him, I ran to him and gave him the biggest hug ever. His friend didn't have a ride home, so Chris offered to drive him home, so the ride home pretty much sucked, I was stuck in the back seat by myself just sitting there not talking :( So that part was pretty lame, but overall, that was one of the best days of my life :) And I can't wait to go through it all again pretty soon!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

Day Twenty Five

Favorite moment or experience you have had with the military


It's probably lame but, my favorite moment is
when we got our first house together. 
We've had so many memories there,
and I'll never forget it! :)

Monday, July 4, 2011

Day Twenty Four

Post a picture of your spouse's favorite sports team


He likes the Patriots, Red Sox, and Lakers :) He has friends who are fans of their rival teams, so there is always an argument with someone when one of these games is on.. It's entertaining to see how mad they get at eachother lol

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Day Twenty Three.

Post a picture and tell what your life would be like without your spouse.




My life without my husband would be close to nothing. That's why there's no picture. He has given me so much, and has made such a good life for the both of us. I honestly don't know what I would do without him. Thank you Chris, for everything you have done. I love him more than anyone could begin to imagine.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

Day Twenty Two

Post a picture of what keeps you strong when your military spouse is away

The one thing that helps to keep me strong is my family.
They are always so supportive,
and show so much love.
I don't know what I would do without them <3

Friday, July 1, 2011

Day Twenty-One

(Yes I know I skipped day 20, I didn't have anything for that picture so I decided not to do it.. oops)

Post a picture of a movie or show you watch when your spouse is away that you usually don’t watch when he is home and tell why you don’t watch it when he is home.


One of my favorite shows! I don't watch it while Chris is around, because he likes to critique it, and say stuff like "Oh that would never happen" "They don't do it like that" And it's kind of annoying, I mean, c'mon it's a tv show. But I love it so much, I think I've seen every episode :)

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Day Nineteen

Post a picture of his favorite show and tell of one episode you watched with him


Chris likes to watch sports, all the time. And if a game isn't on, he watches Sports Center. No matter what time of day, if he is watching tv, it's ESPN. When he is deployed it is so weird not hearing about sports 24/7, and not being updated with what teams are doing good, I miss it in a way. It's kind of weird.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Day Eighteen

Post a picture/video and the lyrics of your and your spouse’s song and tell how/why it became your song.



 KCI & JoJo - All My Life is our wedding song. We chose it because the lyrics are amazing. :) That's pretty much it lol

Monday, June 27, 2011

Day Seventeen

Post a picture of something your spouse left you while he was away and how that helped you… did/do you carry it with you or sleep with it?


On Chris's first deployment, the Family Readiness Center gave me a little bag with a bunch of stuff in it. You can record stuff on the teddy bear, so Chris said a little message on it. I listen to it before bed every night. It helps because it's nice to hear his voice before I go to bed. It also came with a tiny little pillow thing, which is kinda cute.

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Day Sixteen

Post a picture of your favorite piece of jewelry that your spouse has gotten you and why it is your favorite


My wedding ring is my favorite piece of jewelry he has gotten me. It was my mom's old wedding ring my dad gave to her. Even though it was handed down, it still means a lot to me. I don't have a wedding band with it just yet.. But it's perfect for me. I don't need anything huge or flashy :)

Saturday, June 25, 2011

Day Fifteen

Post a picture of your spouse during your proudest moment of him


 I'm a horrible wife and don't have hardly any pictures of him dealing with his job. This is the night of Chris' ALS graduation. He won the commandant award for his class. I was extremely proud of him. I would have to say though, my all-time favorite, which I don't have a picture of because I deleted them :( Was when he graduated basic training! No matter what he does or accomplishes in his career, I am always proud of him <3 I guess I have to start carrying my camera more often!

Friday, June 24, 2011

Day Fourteen.

Post a picture of what consumes most of your time when your spouse is away

  The computer consumes the majority of my time while Chris is gone. Either being on Facebook, YouTube, or Googling random things. I am on the computer for probably over 3 hours a day. It's pretty sad. When I'm not on the computer, I'm watching HGTV. I love this show. I watch it for inspiration for decorating my house and I love all the shows on there! Ah I'm such a loser.

Thursday, June 23, 2011

Day Thirteen.

Post a picture of your favorite military support accessory and tell where you got it from



I really hate to post the same picture twice...
But this is my favorite support accessory.
I used to have a yellow ribbon on my tree back
home while Chris was deployed, but since
I'm not there, I can't put one up.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

Day Twelve.

Post a picture of a book you are reading/have read because of your spouse being in the military and tell how it has helped you.


I haven't read any military books yet.. 
But I've heard this one was good, so I
might look for it on Amazon :)

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Day Eleven.

Post a picture of the stationary you pour your heart out onto in letters to your spouse

 

I only write him letters occasionally.. We stick to email. 
I can't tell you how many emails we have sent 
back and forth since he's been gone.. 
It has to be over 300, maybe even more.
I love that I'm able to talk to him every single day.
Thank you internet!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Day Ten

Post a photo that you or your spouse took on webcam or cell phone

 I love him<3

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Day Nine

Post a picture of your favorite thing that you or your spouse has made and tell what it is.


 On Chris's first deployment
he made me a 550 cord bracelet <3
I try and wear it as often as I can
but I put it on my keys so I don't lose it :)

I bought one while he was in basic training in 2008, 
but this one means more than that one ever could
because he made it for me <3

Saturday, June 18, 2011

Day Eight.

Post your favorite deployment photo (a photo of "see you laters", him coming home, or him deployed) and tell why it is your favorite.

 Webcam kisses! 
The closest I can get to the real thing
for another few months!

Friday, June 17, 2011

Day Seven.

Post a picture of a wonderful friend that you’ve made because of your spouse being in the military

 Tiffani, Stephanie and Shaela :o)

I have only known them for about a year ish,
but they are all such good friends, 
and so awesome! & I'm grateful to have
them in my life!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Day Six.

Post a picture of the base your spouse is stationed at and tell 5 cool things about that base



1. Atlantic Ocean on one side, Banana River on the other. Enough said.
2. Our first house together
3. Tons to do around the area.
4. The housing is decent
5. Tons to do around the area

What sucks about it is the tons of old people that come every day! Annoying.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Day Five.

Post a pic of the branch he is in and list your favorite "stay strong" quote.


Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing love when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough.

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Day Four.

Post a picture of the family he had to leave behind to protect his country

 

Our boys, Brady & Duncan
& Me of course :o)

Monday, June 13, 2011

Day Three.

Post a a random photo of how you and your spouse met. Did you know then that you’d be where you are with him today?


We met at Springstead High School in 9th grade. We didn't really talk very much before and after we started going out, so from than, no I probably wouldn't have thought we would get married right out of high school, over 3 years ago. I'm glad I went and sat at Jason Contois's lunch table, because I never would have found out that Chris thought I was "hot" :)

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Day Two.

Post a picture of you and you military spouse being silly


We don't have any :( This is the silliest one sadly lol

Saturday, June 11, 2011

Day One.

Day 1 - Post a photo of your military spouse and list 10 facts about him.

 1.He's 22 years old
2. Been in the Air Force for 3 years
3. Awesome sense of humor
4. Has a big heart
5. Good at everything he does :P
6. Loves every type of sport
7. Very smart
8. His hair always has to be perfect
9. Very caring
10. The best husband I could have asked for

30 Day Pic Challenge

Since I never have anything good to blog about, I'm going to do a 30 Day Picture Challenge, Military Style. I have a feeling it will take longer than 30 days. Let's see how it goes :P
 
Day 1 - Post a photo of your military spouse and list 10 facts about him
Day 2 - Post a picture of you and you military spouse being silly
Day 3 - Post a a random photo of how you and your spouse met. Did you know then that you’d be where you are with him today?
Day 4 - Post a picture of the family he had to leave behind to protect his country
Day 5 - Post a pic of the branch he is in and list your favorite "stay strong" quote.
Day 6 - Post a picture of the base your spouse is stationed at and tell 5 cool things about that base
Day 7 - Post a picture of a wonderful friend that you’ve made because of your spouse being in the military
Day 8 - Post your favorite deployment photo (a photo of "see you laters", him coming home, or him deployed) and tell why it is your favorite
Day 9 - Post a picture of your favorite thing that you or your spouse has made and tell what it is.
Day 10 - Post a photo that you or your spouse took on webcam or cell phone
Day 11 - Post a picture of the stationary you pour your heart out onto in letters to your spouse
Day 12 - Post a picture of a book you are reading/have read because of your spouse being in the military and tell how it has helped you.
Day 13 - Post a picture of your favorite military support accessory and tell where you got it from.
Day 14 - Post a picture of what consumes most of your time when your spouse is away
Day 15 - Post a picture of your spouse during your proudest moment of him
Day 16 - Post a picture of your favorite piece of jewelry that your spouse has gotten you and why it is your favorite!
Day 17 - Post a picture of something your spouse left you while he was away and how that helped you… did/do you carry it with you or sleep with it?
Day 18 – Post a picture/video and the lyrics of your and your spouse’s song and tell how/why it became y’alls song
Day 19 - Post a picture of his favorite show and tell of one episode you watched with him
Day 20 - Post a pic of you in something military (shirt, camo, etc.)
Day 21 - Post a picture of a movie or show you watch when your spouse is away that you usually don’t watch when he is home and tell why you don’t watch it when he is home.
Day 22 - Post a picture of what keeps you strong when your military spouse is away
Day 23 - Post a picture and tell what your life would be like without your spouse
Day 24 - Post a picture of your spouse's favorite sports team
Day 25- Favorite moment or experience you have had with the military
Day 26 - Post a homecoming picture and tell how you felt that day
Day 27 - Post a picture of something that reminds you of your spouse and tell why it does.
Day 28 - Post a picture of the band that sings the song of your significant other’s ring tone while they are away.
Day 29 - Post a picture of the coolest place you ever got to go to because of your spouse being in the military
Day 30 - Post a picture of your favorite military spouse support group and tell how it has helped you.

Thursday, June 9, 2011

50%

I don't really have much to blog about besides the fact that tomorrow Chris is halfway done with being deployed! I'm waiting for him to get on Skype, then after that, watching a movie and relaxing & playing Tiny Wings on my phone!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Bring on the sunshine


So looking forward to this.

Only 3 more days and we're off to Florida for 2 weeks!
Beach, family, friends, relaxation <3

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Boring life :P

So, tomorrow makes 2 months down on this slow-moving deployment! Time has been dragging so far, because I haven't been doing much to keep me busy.. And I know I need to change that once we get back from Florida. I need something to do to occupy my time during the day, or else these next 4 months are going to go by extremely slow..

I have been fortunate enough to talk to Chris every day since he's been gone, thanks to email and Skype! It has made it way easier being able to get a hold of him during the day :) So far, I've sent him 2 care packages, and am currently buying stuff for another one. Last deployment I think I only sent him one or two, and I felt bad about it. I plan on sending one a month, or maybe more than that, I love sending him stuff! :)

We have been planning our vacation for when he gets home, and are looking at going on a cruise! I am so excited, because for one, this is our first vacation alone in the 7 years that we've been together! And two, because he's never been on a cruise. We're gonna have a blast! We're thinking of a 7 day Western Caribbean :) We have to apply for passports once he gets home, and I heard it takes a while, so it's looking like the end of October, early November. Ah I'm so excited!

Dave, Lindsey and I are heading to Florida next Friday for 2 weeks for Jeff's wedding :) That's gonna be a fun drive, we'll have 7 dogs with us lol. I still have to find shoes to match my dress, and figure out what I wanna do with my hair. But I'm exciteddd! I can't wait to see my family and go to the beach :)

This is pretty much all that has happened lately.. Which is, nothing! :P I have a boring life and that needs to change! :(

Instead of concentrating on how much further you have to go, concentrate on how far you've already gotten. If you've made it this far, you can make it the rest of the way so just believe in yourself.

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Time is passing.. slowly

I haven't been blogging as much I wanted to. Mostly because I don't think anyone reads it, so I don't have very much motivation to write. That, and I have a very boring life!

We finally past the first month of this deployment! Only 5 more to go.. I am hoping that time will start to pick up once I get busy. After we get back from Florida we will be right around the halfway mark, which is very exciting!

I got a job at a local casino here in Oklahoma, but decided that I wasn't cut out to be a cocktail waitress. I didn't like the atmosphere. I did make about $30 from it haha.

We are planning a trip to Florida at the end of May for Jeff's wedding. I'm so excited to finally be with all my family at once. I just wish Chris could be there with us. I can't find a dress for the wedding and it's killing me! I have been looking everywhere! Hopefully I'll find something soon.


Well, I'm off to go buy some things for a package I am putting together for Chris! :)
He watches the sunrise as I watch the sunset. He says good morning as I say good night. He suits up for duty as I dress down for bed. All those things are so different, but one thing remains the same.. our love  
(My favorite quote I've read so far.. It's so true)

Friday, April 15, 2011

Stages of Deployment.

I found a website called deardeploymentihateyou.com .. There are artices or blogs whatever you want to call them, about dealing with deployment. They all relate to me in some way or another, but this one was almost dead on. It's pretty long, but if you have the chance to read it, go for it!

Stages of Deployment

The beginning will suck. There's no getting around it.

You'll say goodbye and be torn in two. You'll take the drive home, and you'll probably calm down. You'll go back to the house and it'll almost feel like nothing has changed. You'll feel like "hey this isn't as hard as I thought it would be." You'll think you're handling it really well, and while you probably are...wait for it.

The first day or so you'll be really bored but not too depressed. You'll want to be alone but you wont be suffering like you thought you would be....but it'll hit you. One day, probably in the first week you'll have a break down. You'll have been waiting for a call and it takes longer than you thought, or you just cant stand the thought of not having to share the bed, or you'll trip over a pair of old boots and everything will come crashing down.
Let it. That's the one thing you'll learn. If you need to fall apart, don't try and stop it. The only way to pick up the pieces is to let them fall.

Once this happens, deployment is going to hurt. A little every day but you'll manage the pain. Stay busy. In the beginning, you'll feel helpless and like you've give anything to keep him from where he's going. But you can't. That's why we send care packages. Go to the store and throw your heart and soul into a care package.

We present care packages like we do it for them, but in all honesty, we do it for ourselves. We want to feel less helpless. Like we're in some way, in the only way, making their lives a little easier, the only way we can.

After the first 3 months you'll set yourself into a pseudo groove. You're used to the deployment by now and with 3 months under your belt, the next three will probably sail by like they never even happened. Before you know it you're 6 months down and only have half to go.

R&R: It's going to be amazing. You're going to have a hard time sharing him, but realize that this is his vacation and other people love and miss him too. realizing and accepting this will make it easier on everyone. He's going to have friends who he hasn't talked to since he left,want to hang out. Let them. That's what our loved ones do. They keep in touch with us and leave the friends for later, so don't hold it against them that they haven't been around. He hasn't let them. he's only made room enough for you in his deployed life.

The goodbye will be the most horrible day of your life and nothing will ever prepare you for it. It almost seems unfair, like there should be an in-between. Because here and gone isn't good enough. There's no slow goodbye, there's no easing into it. One second he's kissing you goodbye and the next you can't see him anymore and you know the next time you do will be in 6 months.

Cry. Scream. Do what you have to do because you need to get this out.

The deployment will be easier for the last half because you have something to look forward to and because at this point, you've done this before. But with the ease, you're going to run into arguments. You're both used to this and you're both tired of it. You're both trying to put on a
happy face but you're both miserable.

While one is comfortable with the situation, another will have a rough day and want some reassurance and the other wont have the energy for it. You'll both go back and forth with this and the arguments will suck. There will be mis-communications, jealousy, and simple frustration.
It's okay. Just figure out which battles don't need to be fought. if you're arguing because you've run out of things to talk about (don't act like this doesn't apply to you) Then give communication a rest for the day. I know it's hard because we think "if we don't talk and something happens I'll never forgive myself"....it'll be okay. Sometimes you just need some time to yourself and so does he.

The end of the deployment will be horrible. Sorry, I know that's not comforting but I'm not going to lie to you. It sucks. If it went by any slower it may actually go backwards, and that's honestly all I can tell you about the end. It sucks and that's normal, but you'll get through it.

And then they come home.

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Hello Oklahoma

Well, I made it to Oklahoma :) The drive was pretty crappy, we stopped a bunch of times and we slept for a few hours, but we made it safe and sound after almost 24 hours. The dogs did really good, they slept almost the whole time. Brady had to be sitting in someones lap at all times. It got pretty annoying, but I'd rather have that than him whining and barking.

When we made it to the base, we came in and took showers, and took a little nap. Then Lindsey took me to this really good cupcake place. After that we were trying to find a place that sells tanning beds, but had no luck with that. I don't really remember what happend that night since it was a week ago. Lol

Don't they look amazing :)
 Chris and I weren't doing so good for a few days, so I decided to go visit him in Texas while they had some down time. With it only being a little over 3 hours away, it was completely worth it to see if we would be able to fix anything. I got there on Friday afternoon, and it was so good to see him! Even though I was only there for about a day, it was totally worth the drive. We are better now than ever and that is the only thing that matters to me. It was very hard saying bye to him, yet again, but the thing that I kept saying to myself was that the next time I see him will be at the airport in September :D

Dave and Lindsey have been working and going to school during the week, so I stay here and relax, watch tv, play with the puppies. Ya know, pretty much be lazy. And I love it! I think this weekend we might go venture out so I can see whats around here :)

Until than, I have nothing else to write about other than Jersey Shore is on tonight :D

"He's thinking about you. Every time you go to bed hugging your pillow wishing it was him, he's holding on to the perfume sprayed letter wishing it was you. As forgotten as you feel, remember that they miss you just as much, even if they don't always show it in the glorious and romantic ways we dream up."

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Rambling.

I'm in my final few days in the house. I've got the majority of everything packed and thrown away what we don't want anymore. All our blankets and pillows are being washed, and all my clothes are in suitcases. It's starting to hit me harder seeing my whole life all packed up and in the living room... But, it's for the best! Chris and I could definitely use the money that we will be making by me moving out of the house :)

I don't really have much to write about since I haven't been doing anything lately except for packing. The weather has been nice enough for me to go to the beach  :)  I'm hoping to go a couple more times before Lindsey and I hit the road to Oklahoma, because I won't see a beach 'til Jeff and Kylie's wedding in May.

The internet and cable are being shut off on Friday, so this is going to be my last post I get all settled in Oklahoma. I can't wait for that 20 hour drive.. Just kiiddddiiinng I'm kind of dreading being in the car for that long.

Without you, it's like a foreign movie without subtitles. Nothing's wrong, it just feels like something's missing...

Saturday, February 19, 2011

29 weeks left! (I think)

It's been one week since Chris left, and it has gone by pretty quickly. I know it's because I've been keeping busy with packing and getting the house ready to move out, so once I get back to having nothing to do I'm sure it will go by slow, but I'm hoping the rest of the deployment will go as fast as the first week.

The dogs have been fighting all the time now. It's scary because they both look so mean! :( But they have an appointment March 4th to get neutered so I hope that will help with all the aggression.

I only have a few things in the house that need to be packed. I have been trying to get it done asap so I can focus on cleaning and other things that need to be done. I keep having a feeling that the storage unit I reserved is going to be too small for all our stuff. So, fingers crossed that everything fits! I don't want to have to get rid of any of our stuff.

Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you find yourself doing something and wishing they were right there by your side.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Packing, packing and more packing.

So Valentine's Day wasn't as sad as I thought it was going to be. Chris and I don't usually do anything special for Valentine's Day anyways, so it wasn't a big deal for him to miss it. I was cleaning and packing all that day, and I opened my front door to let the dogs out and saw a really pretty bouquet of pink lilies :) I don't know how Chris surprised me with them, but I had no idea he was going to be sending me flowers. Totally unexpected! It cheered me up quite a bit. 

Aren't they pretty!
I've been knocking out a lot of my packing yesterday and today. If I keep it up, I'll most likely have everything packed by this weekend. I had the pre-inspection yesterday and I've been stressing over it ever since I made the appointment at the beginning of the month, but the guy said the house is in really good shape and I have nothing to worry about. Which felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulder because I thought I had a lot more stuff to do than what I really need to do. The walls are painted back to white, and it looks completely different in here. 

Living Room before and after
Dining room before and after

Less than two weeks left in Florida. It's going to be weird not having an actual "home" for 6 months, but I'm grateful for my family for letting me stay with them while Chris is gone. A few months in Oklahoma with David and Lindsey, then the rest of the time in Michigan alternating between my dad and mom. Once it gets close to Chris coming home we're going to decide if we want to stay in an apartment or living in Pelican Coast (military south housing). I think we're leaning towards Pelican Coast though. They are gorgeous! Okay, I'm done rambling for now, I don't think anyone reads this anyways lol.


Why do I do it? Because nights alone aren't permanent. Missing him reminds me that I'm lucky to have someone to miss. Because I am not afraid to make sacrifices for true love.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

One weekend down.

I can't believe it's already been almost 3 days since Chris left. I've been trying to keep busy, and it's helping because it seems like he just left yesterday. I think it helps a lot more knowing that I can just pick up the phone and call him. Once he leaves the country I'm sure it will be a whole different story :(

On Friday I was out of the house almost all day, which was nice because being at home was really depressing knowing Chris isn't there. I went out to lunch with a good friend, went and visited Tiffani at work, then went to Chili's for dinner and drinks with some friends. Saturday was a pretty chill day. I packed up a few boxes and watched some movies. Today I went out to breakfast, went shopping, and then Jeff came over and helped me paint. The house looks so weird with white walls, I don't like it.

I'm so thankful for all my friends, family and everyone else who has offered to help me out with moving, and just giving me support. It really makes this situation alot easier knowing I'm surrounded by such awesome people! A big shout-out to Jeff Kennedy - Thank you for helping out with everything :)

Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing love when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough.

Friday, February 11, 2011

It's not goodbye, it's see you later.

So today's the day.. We woke up at 5am, went to the squadron for a little goodbye breakfast thing, then they left at 7. Can't believe he's gone... I feel I can't cry anymore, for now. Which is good, because I hate crying. Seeing him say bye to the dogs was hard lol I can't imagine what it's gonna be like when we have kids and have to go through this. I don't want to act like I can't handle this, because I can. In a few weeks I will get into my own routine and get used to being on my own.. I'm going to start painting the walls this weekend, which will keep me busy. I'll start my little countdown the day Chris gets into country, so that'll make it a little easier on me :) Hopefully this time they come home when there actually supposed to. Okay, I'm done rambling, I'm gonna go watch a sad girly movie on the couch and cry, or just go back to sleep, that one sounds a little better.

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle. Rather a great reminder of just how strong true love can be.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Almost that time...

I'm new to the whole blogging thing, but figured I'd give it a try. I thought it might be a good idea to do while Chris is deployed, to give him an idea of what goes on at home while he is gone. So here it goes..

We're in the final week of Chris being home, and I know it's going to fly by so I've been soaking up every moment I can with him. I know it's only 6 months, but being without him every single day is so hard. We've done this before, so I know I'm strong enough to handle it. I keep trying to forget he's leaving, but seeing his bags on the floor is just a constant reminder that I'm going to be alone pretty soon... I've got an awesome family and some really supportive friends to help me get through this.

I still have tons of packing to do and things to get done that will keep me busy when Chris leaves. I have to re-paint the walls white again, and make it completely spotless. We don't have that much to pack up, so I've been slacking on putting things away. I've been taking things off the walls, but seeing how empty it looks just makes me even more sad. The final inspection for the house is February 28th, so after that's done and over with, I'm heading to Spring Hill to pick up my sister in law, Lindsey, and we're driving to Oklahoma. I'll be staying with her and my brother for a little bit, then heading to Michigan to stay with the family I have up there... I'm so thankful to have such an awesome support system. I know they will help me get through this.