Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Rambling.

I'm in my final few days in the house. I've got the majority of everything packed and thrown away what we don't want anymore. All our blankets and pillows are being washed, and all my clothes are in suitcases. It's starting to hit me harder seeing my whole life all packed up and in the living room... But, it's for the best! Chris and I could definitely use the money that we will be making by me moving out of the house :)

I don't really have much to write about since I haven't been doing anything lately except for packing. The weather has been nice enough for me to go to the beach  :)  I'm hoping to go a couple more times before Lindsey and I hit the road to Oklahoma, because I won't see a beach 'til Jeff and Kylie's wedding in May.

The internet and cable are being shut off on Friday, so this is going to be my last post I get all settled in Oklahoma. I can't wait for that 20 hour drive.. Just kiiddddiiinng I'm kind of dreading being in the car for that long.

Without you, it's like a foreign movie without subtitles. Nothing's wrong, it just feels like something's missing...

Saturday, February 19, 2011

29 weeks left! (I think)

It's been one week since Chris left, and it has gone by pretty quickly. I know it's because I've been keeping busy with packing and getting the house ready to move out, so once I get back to having nothing to do I'm sure it will go by slow, but I'm hoping the rest of the deployment will go as fast as the first week.

The dogs have been fighting all the time now. It's scary because they both look so mean! :( But they have an appointment March 4th to get neutered so I hope that will help with all the aggression.

I only have a few things in the house that need to be packed. I have been trying to get it done asap so I can focus on cleaning and other things that need to be done. I keep having a feeling that the storage unit I reserved is going to be too small for all our stuff. So, fingers crossed that everything fits! I don't want to have to get rid of any of our stuff.

Missing someone isn't about how long it's been since you've seen them or the amount of time since you've talked. It's about that very moment when you find yourself doing something and wishing they were right there by your side.

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Packing, packing and more packing.

So Valentine's Day wasn't as sad as I thought it was going to be. Chris and I don't usually do anything special for Valentine's Day anyways, so it wasn't a big deal for him to miss it. I was cleaning and packing all that day, and I opened my front door to let the dogs out and saw a really pretty bouquet of pink lilies :) I don't know how Chris surprised me with them, but I had no idea he was going to be sending me flowers. Totally unexpected! It cheered me up quite a bit. 

Aren't they pretty!
I've been knocking out a lot of my packing yesterday and today. If I keep it up, I'll most likely have everything packed by this weekend. I had the pre-inspection yesterday and I've been stressing over it ever since I made the appointment at the beginning of the month, but the guy said the house is in really good shape and I have nothing to worry about. Which felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulder because I thought I had a lot more stuff to do than what I really need to do. The walls are painted back to white, and it looks completely different in here. 

Living Room before and after
Dining room before and after

Less than two weeks left in Florida. It's going to be weird not having an actual "home" for 6 months, but I'm grateful for my family for letting me stay with them while Chris is gone. A few months in Oklahoma with David and Lindsey, then the rest of the time in Michigan alternating between my dad and mom. Once it gets close to Chris coming home we're going to decide if we want to stay in an apartment or living in Pelican Coast (military south housing). I think we're leaning towards Pelican Coast though. They are gorgeous! Okay, I'm done rambling for now, I don't think anyone reads this anyways lol.


Why do I do it? Because nights alone aren't permanent. Missing him reminds me that I'm lucky to have someone to miss. Because I am not afraid to make sacrifices for true love.

Sunday, February 13, 2011

One weekend down.

I can't believe it's already been almost 3 days since Chris left. I've been trying to keep busy, and it's helping because it seems like he just left yesterday. I think it helps a lot more knowing that I can just pick up the phone and call him. Once he leaves the country I'm sure it will be a whole different story :(

On Friday I was out of the house almost all day, which was nice because being at home was really depressing knowing Chris isn't there. I went out to lunch with a good friend, went and visited Tiffani at work, then went to Chili's for dinner and drinks with some friends. Saturday was a pretty chill day. I packed up a few boxes and watched some movies. Today I went out to breakfast, went shopping, and then Jeff came over and helped me paint. The house looks so weird with white walls, I don't like it.

I'm so thankful for all my friends, family and everyone else who has offered to help me out with moving, and just giving me support. It really makes this situation alot easier knowing I'm surrounded by such awesome people! A big shout-out to Jeff Kennedy - Thank you for helping out with everything :)

Distance is not for the fearful, it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing love when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough.

Friday, February 11, 2011

It's not goodbye, it's see you later.

So today's the day.. We woke up at 5am, went to the squadron for a little goodbye breakfast thing, then they left at 7. Can't believe he's gone... I feel I can't cry anymore, for now. Which is good, because I hate crying. Seeing him say bye to the dogs was hard lol I can't imagine what it's gonna be like when we have kids and have to go through this. I don't want to act like I can't handle this, because I can. In a few weeks I will get into my own routine and get used to being on my own.. I'm going to start painting the walls this weekend, which will keep me busy. I'll start my little countdown the day Chris gets into country, so that'll make it a little easier on me :) Hopefully this time they come home when there actually supposed to. Okay, I'm done rambling, I'm gonna go watch a sad girly movie on the couch and cry, or just go back to sleep, that one sounds a little better.

Distance between two hearts is not an obstacle. Rather a great reminder of just how strong true love can be.

Monday, February 7, 2011

Almost that time...

I'm new to the whole blogging thing, but figured I'd give it a try. I thought it might be a good idea to do while Chris is deployed, to give him an idea of what goes on at home while he is gone. So here it goes..

We're in the final week of Chris being home, and I know it's going to fly by so I've been soaking up every moment I can with him. I know it's only 6 months, but being without him every single day is so hard. We've done this before, so I know I'm strong enough to handle it. I keep trying to forget he's leaving, but seeing his bags on the floor is just a constant reminder that I'm going to be alone pretty soon... I've got an awesome family and some really supportive friends to help me get through this.

I still have tons of packing to do and things to get done that will keep me busy when Chris leaves. I have to re-paint the walls white again, and make it completely spotless. We don't have that much to pack up, so I've been slacking on putting things away. I've been taking things off the walls, but seeing how empty it looks just makes me even more sad. The final inspection for the house is February 28th, so after that's done and over with, I'm heading to Spring Hill to pick up my sister in law, Lindsey, and we're driving to Oklahoma. I'll be staying with her and my brother for a little bit, then heading to Michigan to stay with the family I have up there... I'm so thankful to have such an awesome support system. I know they will help me get through this.